Open Apology

If you’ve read my blog before, you know I have a longstanding tradition of ranting about the LDS church, religion, and many people who are somehow connected to it. I believe that I’ve gone too far at times. I’ve ridiculed the private and profound struggles of many. I have failed to respect the altars of others. I have failed to give reverence to the paths of my fellow travelers.

I am very sorry.

I’ve been carrying around anger, resentment, and hurt about my divorce, the church, and other heartaches for many years. I’ve been carrying around a strange kind of shame and self criticism that has been hard for me to see, but probably grotesquely obvious to the rest of you. It’s been wildly confusing to me, but above all, burdensome. I want to let it all go. I want to transcend and get on with co-creating things that are majestic.

I have been blessed to meet people, both in person and in the virtual sense, that have pointed the way. I am deeply grateful for their arrival, their presence, and their unspoken sermons. I’ve been trying to take it in.

If you have a moment, I’d like to share one of those unspoken sermons. There is a composer and director named Eric Whitacre. He got the idea that individual people from around the world could sing parts of his pieces, record them on YouTube, and then have all these parts combined into a virtual choir. There is something God-like in his creations. Seeing what this man has created that calls me forward to be better. I’d like to share it with you. This is best experienced on a large screen, with the sound up, and ideally – when you are alone.

Virtual Choir 1.0, Lux Aurumque: